I realized now I need a guy who is basically on the same level of energy as me, someone who will just go along with my crazy ideas and just do things on the spur of the moment. I don’t want someone who will be a prude. I want someone who can just have fun, who will have those weird conversations with me and just not be all “ehh…” Normal is so boring to me its ridiculous and if I hate anything in the world it is being bored…

And talking to this guy makes me realize how fast you can like someone when you have chemistry.

Yet this is what I need, somebody who won’t bore me to hell and be just a big a weirdo.

I’m all for chasing people but I will not chase someone who isn’t willing to give me as much a chance as I will for them

I like that he notices when I make sure to call him before he goes to bed since he has to be up for work really early, and I send him basically stories for him to read when he gets back to signal on facebook. How I cheer him up and basically destroy his sleep schedule because he wants to talk to me

We probably can’t date and he knows that too but we like doing cute shit like this because I like being a boyfriend  and he says I pamper him which he loves. We c.an’t but its okay because I still like making him feel loved.

Hopefully I can find someone I can actually date and use these skills on

I think I was just built to be in a relationship…how do i single? 

I’ve never been a fan of anything short-term. From food, to clothes, to things i buy. and most of all people…I never invest in a person I see as a month or even 3. I don’t want a bad relationship like I did last year…I want something fun and innocent/naughty and full of cute shit. 

This year I want to make great friends, and do so much more. Beyonce song: I wanna School Life. I’ve been a fan of the limelight but I wanna be known for just doing things not infamous. So much motivation!
Okay end of ramble. Back to working on putting the rest of my endless belongings… 

Alot of people are afraid of entering or pursing someone because they know deep down, they are not a person who they will be going out for a second or a minute or even a month. They are the type of person who can maintain, and build a great if not near perfect relationship. They are the types of people who will text you first, go out of their way to make you feel better, always talk to you and never be bored or do anything to hurt you. They are not built for that, they are the types people would kill to be with and they want to be with you.

Now too many people want to deny these people for stupid reason, but when the times comes and they are taken…basically you could’ve lost your chance forever. Those two could get married because that person you let go was the marrying type, their “a Keeper” a “wifey” they are the type people will go to lengths not to fuck, but to hold hands with.

If this kind of person wants you, don’t you dare deny them. Because they will move on, and it will suck for them but they can and have been able to move on because they are smart enough not to stick around for someone who spits bullshit or always brings them down. Especially if you never gave them a shot in the first place, then you really missed out.

The sad part is, these people are beautiful and usually both physically and emotionally but they are always emotionally beautiful. Now before you deny a person who is like that, you better hope and pray you find another. 

I have no idea what it is about you…but I really like you. I really just…like you.

I don’t want to have sex, or romantic stuff. I just wanna cuddle up in bed and do little Eskimo kisses all night while watching our favorite shows with ice cream and hot wings. That stuff I wanna do with you. I wanna hold your hand while just walking along, I wanna play footsie, I wanna play video games with you.

I want to get you a big big Domo plushie, because you love Domo. I wanna do those things so you smile. So you look at me and hug me. Why do you make me this way…

I cherish the little time we get to talk, because those times are when I am always smiling so hard so true. and always trying to keep you laughing.

I have no idea…no idea why I am crushing so hard for you. I really honestly don’t…but I wish you feel some type of way towards me. This crush…is more than a crush now.